I'm in my middle years. I feel like I've got a lot of years ahead of me still, but I feel like so many lifetimes have happened already too. It's kind of an amazing place to be. And the phrase "it's all downhill from here" suddenly comes to mind accompanied with the image of the view from the Otley Chevin.
And it seems to me incredibly apt that the Chevin was the location for my album photoshoot, and that my album is called "prime" though that word doesn't occur in the album anywhere else. Not even once in a single song, out of the 17 songs on the album. I didn't actually go through a conscious thought process to arrive at the decision of what to call my album. Like most significant/important decisions I make, it just came to me, in what seemed like a flash. One minute I was thinking of all sorts of random things, the next minute I knew my album was going to be called "prime". And heaven only knew why.
So here I am, as far in as I am out. I can see a long way in every direction. And it makes me feel sad and thoughtful and grateful, and full of so many thoughts and feelings and life.
I feel strong and so vulnerable too. Here at the summit of my life, which has turned out to be so different from how I imagined. It has turned out better, I think. But sadder too. Not that the sadness makes it better. Those two things are definitely not to be confused.
Okay I think I'll go now and spend some time being sad, not here.
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Dear Lee Sun
I was talking to an old friend, Luke Riemenschneider of Arkansas, the other day and he told me about some correspondence he had with you years ago, so I looked up your blog.
I see that you do not get many comments on it so I thought I would write you one.
Here is a question: why do you list your astrological sign in your profile? This means that you think it says something important about you, but how can this be when you must know that astrology is superstitious nonsense and that it is blasphemous to take it seriously?
Do give me your thoughts on this.
Good wishes
Amelita
Hi Amelita,
Thanks, that's really kind of you. In answer to your question, as far as I know, I didn't choose to list my astrological sign. I think Blogger has just gleaned that info from my birthday which they asked when I signed up, and they probably list that on everybody's profile by default. I don't know of any way to remove that from my profile. Do you know of a way?
All the best,
L.
Yes, easy. Log into Blogger, go to Dashboard and click on Edit Profile. Scroll down and you will find all the information which you originally put in. You must have ticked the little box which says "Show astrological signs". Just untick it.
I have a theory that women are more superstitious than men, and I tested this by looking at the Blogger profiles of fifty women and fifty men. 94 percent of the women had given their sign but only 12 percent of the men. q.e.d.
Or maybe men are more technically inclined? I wonder if that tick box was there when I signed up to blogger originally, so many years ago ... I looked for it then, and couldn't see it then.
Superstitiousness is just another human attempt to try to control what cannot be controlled. Who knows if women tend to be more superstitious than men or not ... are women more prone to wanting control? Hmmm ...
Astrological sign removed from profile! Thanks for your help Amelita. I'm pretty sure that option wasn't there when I originally signed up to Blogger, but they have revamped their templates since then. It wouldn't have occurred to me to look for that, so thanks for bringing it to my attention!
Nothing technical about ticking a box to publicise your star sign. The option has been there for many years and was taken up by far more women than men. I rest my case.
Another question: if you believe that your Jesus is the fount of all wisdom why, when you needed help in 2009, did you not turn to him rather than to a couple of human counsellors?
I think Jesus works with us, through all things, people, circumstances in our lives.
What makes you think I didn't turn to Jesus in 2009?
Turning to Jesus isn't a way of rejecting all other friends/people/support ... he's not a cult leader, and doesn't demand you to alienate yourself from all the rest of reality/creation ...
But OF COURSE Jesus was a cult leader, in the sense that his pronouncements are not to be questioned and that the faithful must not deny their absolute, universal truth.
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