These are a few of my fear-evoking things ...

Before I start expounding on my bleak topic, here's a pic of my darling boy at his 3rd birthday party, with a few of his friends.



Now on to more serious matters. I'm afraid of ...

- institutions (or rather getting trapped in one)
- authority figures
- anybody older than me
- dull useless events and meetings
- dull chores and tasks (that they'll be endless and get the better of me)
- not being productive
- being too self-absorbed to respond caringly to those around me
- being selfishly motivated and consequently acting to the detriment of others
- making bad decisions
- pain

I think that's about it for now. That list is just off the top of my head. It seemed like a good exercise.

I surprised myself with the "anybody older than me" thing. I think that fear is rooted in the way my parents seemed to believe that age made somebody "right", and everybody younger "wrong". I've got a weird belief now that anyone older than me could very possibly be like a despotic military dictator who will use their age to justify tyrannizing me. Really weird belief indeed. Maybe now that I've had this epiphany, I won't be afraid any longer, of older people.

Anyway, must dash ... duty calls ...